Selma Blair has been inspiring many people with her open, honest posts about her battle with multiple sclerosis, a diagnosis she shared in October. 

The 47-year-old revealed on Instagram that she seems to be getting sicker, but is still dreaming of brighter days ahead. Blair is dreaming, she wrote, about riding her horse Skytop.

“We only had a short time before I couldn’t even get to him or stay on,” she wrote on Instagram. “But he has come so far. And even though I may seem like I have gone farther away, I am learning and getting healthier. Even as I get seemingly sicker. I will jump this horse around again.”

She is bonded to Skytop she says, because the horse has helped her overcome horrifying health issues in the past. 

Blair recalled: “After I gave birth and felt half dead all the time, after the rage and the tears, after my heart exploded with caring and understanding, before any diagnosis, I searched for this horse. I knew the only place I was really growing with self love was at @cellardoorequestrian.”

She added that all of this will take money, and she made a pitch for jobs: “Affording horse shows will require some major work opportunities ahead. So I am asking for it all. I am asking. For all of us who want it. Ask. Ask. Listen. I have the unicorn. Now I have to be able to find him again.”